Dearest Santa Claus,
I hope you are doing well. I know you must be pretty caught up these days delivering gifts all over the world. I had last written my last letter to you when I was just 8 years old. Today I am writing to you again exactly after 20 years. After my 9th birthday I realized that you're only a myth cause I stopped getting any more gifts from you and look at me today ... penning down this letter to you with hope all over my face. Well, I know what you're thinking right now... Do I believe in you? Yes, I do.
Let me come straight to the point .. I have been a very bad boy all throughout the year. I have made a lot of people upset ... a lot of people cry.
Please don't tear this letter .. Please read further ..
I know that fact that you only gift those people who have been good all throughout the year and considering my bad track record I don't deserve any new gifts at all. Honestly, I don't want anything new and fancy..
Can you please return me back all that I have lost?? Please...
People around me often ask me to move on. They keep telling me that what ever happens.. happens for the good. But then I am blessed with a stupid stubborn heart that refuses to listen to anyone. So could you please return back all that I have lost? I should usually be asking God all this but its been close to a year now since we had a decent conversation. Earlier we were like buddies .. Really.
You must me wondering what am I talking about right?
Firstly I have lost my peace of mind. I cannot sleep at nights .. I cannot think straight. I usually end up getting in a state of depression and trust me I hate it. Boys of my age are settled down in life or maybe partying hard somewhere and look at me Santa.. I'm still trying to figure out my life. Sounds crazy right? Do you need any assistance in distributing gifts tonight? I'm very much available. So could you please give me my peace of mind back?
Secondly its all about losing the one you Love. It is heart breaking when you lose the one you love the most, isn't it Santa? And the catch here is that I still don't know where did I go wrong. I try hard not to think about my past but I end up thinking about it at least a few times everyday and those thoughts are enough to shake me up totally. Honestly, there are so many people out there who love me and really want to be with me. Then why am I finding it so difficult to erase my past? Do you have a magical eraser or something of that sort that can delete the memories of my past? Love can make you or break you .. It tore me apart Santa. I have been raised on a diet of almonds I guess, forgetting things are really getting difficult now. I know she is never going to come back ... May be I was never worth it after all. I've lost my ability to think straight.Could you please give me back my ability to think straight. My ability to differentiate between whats good for me and whats bad for me?
Thirdly its about losing my ambitions .. losing my identity. You know Santa, off late I have become so ambition less. I've lost the zeal of making it big in life. I'm slowly losing my identity too. I once used to be the life of every party and look at me today. I've created a shell around me ... I try hard to break it but every time I try doing that I fail miserably and somewhere down the line its all connected to the heart break. Well I don't blame anyone for my current situation. I'm solely responsible for all the mess around me then why am I behaving like I'm blind? Like I cannot see anything that's going on around me... Like a cranky child who just refuses to listen to anyone. What is wrong with me? Could you please help me in getting my ambitions and identity back.
Lastly could you please tell my grandmother that I love her very much? I lost my grandmother on the 22nd of December and I only regret that fact that I didn't tell her that I loved her enough. How would I? I was lost in my own world full of sorrows and confusion ... Today I realize what have I've lost when she's not around.. I miss the way she called me "Sabi Boy" ... I know you're in good terms with the Almighty and you can walk in to the gates of heaven anytime. Could you please do this for me? Could you please tell her that I love her very much and that I'm sorry for not being there around her during her last days... I'm a bad grandson right? I told you earlier, that I have been a very bad boy.
People like me think from the heart and that's exactly what screws up everything, I guess. I don't really care what you think about me Santa. Whatever I've written today, I've written it straight from my HEART.
Merry Christmas Santa,
Thanks & Regards,
Sabi.
After reading this, Yes a tear did role down my eye.. I wish that Santa does listen to what you have to convey..a n helps you to get over the ordeal..Ameen!
ReplyDeleteBut I have something to share more. I believe Santa or God helps only those who help themselves.
It’s not just the wants but the way you choose matters.
Few points I wish to share, may be you can think about them -
The moment you realize God had greater plans for you that don’t involve crying at night or be sad
The moment you stop comparing / thinking yourself to others because it undermines your worth, education and your parent’s wisdom.
The moment you live your dreams, not because of what it will prove but because that is all you want to do. People’s opinions don’t matter. ..That’s how you are a writer now… “I'd rather be partly great than entirely useless”, that’s what you should tell you brain
The moment you realize that no one is your enemy, except yourself.
The moment you realize that you can have everything you want in life. However, it takes timing, the right heart, the right actions, the right passion and a willingness to risk it all. If it is not yours, it is because you really didn’t want it, need it or God prevented it.
The moment you realize the ghost of your ancestors stood between you and the person you loved. They really don't want you mucking up the family line with someone that acts anything less than honorable.
The moment you realize that happiness was never about getting a person. They are only a helpmate towards achieving your life mission.
The moment you believe that love is not about losing or winning. It is just a few moments in time, followed by an eternity of situations to grow from.
We ( Family, friends, welshers, admirers )just want to see you happy no matter what. Just do not let someone pass by you for someone who is already gone.
Cheers!!